year 2 in action!

oh. my. gosh.

hello my angel girls!! so sorry that i haven't posted in a while lol. i've been SOOOOO busy lately!

it took me a while to move into my new dorm but i'm finally settled in. grocery shopping to live on your own is still something i need to get used to. also putting all my stuff was a great task in itself because i have SOOOO much stuff. it's actually insane that 8 big containers of clothes and whatnot actually fit in my room. did i mention that i have a singles dorm! so i'm the only one living in it but my best friend mika is my suitemate so it works out!

i also started classes and working on campus again. it's been a whirlwind so far even though i've only been here for only two weeks. i had all staff training that was two days long, YAWNNNNN. but it was okay since i got paid for it. but i only have like one class in person, the rest is online. so that's not bad either.

it's just that this year i am the vice president of the hawai'i club at my school so that's been taking up a lot of my time. planning meetings, going to said meetings, making sure everyone on the board has what they need. it's a lot but i'm so excited for what's to come this year!

butttt..some fun parts that i really want to share....

1. mika got a car! 

so now we don't have to uber to the functions or to just get groceries and stuff. as long as i pay for her gas money she'll drive us around. yay!!

(basically us in the car but mika is a WAYYY better driver than cher horowitz)

2. i already went to a function and i have so much lined up too!

my friends and i LOVE to party. i mean college kids am i right? we went to this event called simp city in vegas where they played rnb and hiphop all night. i was a little off one (because what college kid doesn't drink) but it was okay. it was kind of empty but i was still happy to be with my friends. this upcoming week though we have some school events and i think a house party too. so can't wait!!!!!

(meaf at the functions)

i think the last thing that i want to share is pretty much two things separately but can be talked about together. 

pretty much since last semester (maybe a lil before that) i've had two friends that don't really act like friends basically keeping me occupied. i don't wanna say that they're both situationships because i don't think it is but i know that they aren't just friends to me either. i've never kissed or did anything too...definitive...with them it was just always weird tension that not only i witnessed but my actual platonic friends saw too.

i would go in depth but there's a lot that happened since october last year so i'll just refer to the two "situations" as 1 and 2. 

1 is the first guy that i ever felt like something real could've happened but didn't because he doesn't feel the same and 2 is a flirty friendship where both of us don't acknowledge the weird tension in our conversations and actions.

but the reason i need to update you all about this is because they're both here and i don't feel the same but i don't feel different about them. there are moments where that line between friends and something more still gets pushed. i mean we all even hung out over the summer since we're all from hawai'i. did i mention that all of us are in the same friend group?????

AHAHAHAHA this is so bad. i'm so cooked. 

but they both still do very questionable things. looks that linger a little too long, touches that i wouldn't do to my other friends, words that could mean a whole different thing if we weren't just "friends". you know very confusing mixed signals in a way. 

but being back so far, there were a couple moments with the both of them where i still felt all the emotions i had for them before. i can't be consumed by this again. for the both of them is also CRAZY chloe! like HUH? all i ask is that you pray for your girl, so that i'm not going insane again over the same people. please. my lack of a stable love life needs to end. give me something certain or nothing at all lol.

anyways that's it for now! i promise to try my best to update y'all more frequently! but until next post, ttyl my angel girls!!

love,

chloe